25 random things about myself

I was tagged by a friend on Facebook and I thought I might as well write this here too... :p

Afterall, I am this IT dinosaur who is still trying to figure out how to write this on my Facebook account! Hahaha... :p

First... Da rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged, in addition to the person(s) who tagged you. If I tagged you, it’s because I want to know more about you!

So, here are the 25 random things about Buaya you might or might not had known and you might or might not had wanted to know... :p In random order:

1)I had 3 failed relationships before I met Boy. The first was 8 years older than me. He's the guy I loved the most, I guess... I still miss him a lot. We were together for almost 2 years. The second was 2 years younger than me, perhaps the most intellectual of all my ex-es. We were together for almost 3.5 years. The third was for a very short period only. He also has the shortest penis of the 3 but I enjoyed sex with him the most. :p We were together for only, *gasp* 3 months but I really put my heart in it. Boy is my 4th and hopefully my last. We are starting our 6th year liao...

2)I am always trying to be a flex. In fact, I almost always fantasize about getting fucked... But I just dun enjoy being fucked at all... So far, I had only had complte and utter success at being fucked by 2 guys... Both possess small but wonderfully powerful dicks which made me hard and then cum while they fucked me. The other so called success happened when I took control and sat on the cocks after they had tortured me and I got fed up. I got hard only when I sat on them and managed to jerk and cum a couple of times. Anyway, I need HUGE amounts of cum for such and it was not really satisfying.

Oh... wait... Think I recalled W penetrating me and fucking me with me being high and hard and cum... But I was so high then (NO, i was NOT on drugs, it was just a natural high), I can't really recall clearly what exactly happened then... just that I enjoyed him fucking me also... Hmm...

Anyway, I want to be a flex. It is less pressurizing than being a top, it is more fun, I can have more sex with more people and I can turn more bottom when I got older... :p

3)I had crushes on girls and indeed I even had a girlfriend once. My first crush on a girl was in primary school on a fellow classmate. But it was really just a forgettable feeling. My first serious crush on a girl was in secondary school. My face will go red when I saw her. All my friends and her friends knew about it and was always teasing us about it. She also knew and I even get to send her back home a few times... Hey, we are more silly and conservative then... :p But she told me one day that she would wanna concentrate on her studies first, which is a hint on me not to 'tackle' her and we sort of drifted... I went on to my JC and her, poly and we kept in contact with letters (yes, real snail mailed letters)... I even called her in my BMT days, when we each are only allowed a few precious minutes to use the pay phone... :p

But nothing happened... :p

And I got myself a girlfriend in college! :p This girl likes me and I kinda think she is nice and my classmates made us go together and we got together for a few months. But then I realise that I don't really liked her and it is unfair for her and so I broker up with her. She was really upset... Gosh... Now I feel guilty...

I had a few more crushes with girls thereafter, even up till recently... And I even had desires to squeeze myself a few breasts....

Maybe I am a bi... kekeke...

4)I am really horny... always... Hahaha! As if you guys don't know about this by now. Kekeke... There is almost never a day gone by without me man handling my cock in one way or another... :p

Whenever I have nothing better to do, my hands will naturally wonder down south and I will start grabbing and touching my cock... When I am outside with nothing to do, I will think about where I can go cruise, where I can go find cock etc...

Now, my tastes in men had also widened so much, almost anyone would be 'do-able'... Thus hopefully increasing my chances of having sex...

I think I might be addicted to sex! :p

5)I have a secret wish, which is to be a rich taitai who dun have to do any work but play mahjong and do shopping and have sex the whole time and have a rich man to support me. Heh...

Wish only lah... Wait long long lah... :p

6)I like to sing but then I will only sings songs by female singers... Think its a problem with my range... I find almost all songs by male singers just too difficult to sing... However, when it comes to oldies... Its different... :p

7)I am terribly lazy. Its true. I am truly like a crocodile. Given a choice, I will really prefer just sitting there and doing nothing... I sometimes even get too lazy to hunt for sex... And sometimes, if the bottom is not as interesting, I can get too lazy to do the fucking, but encourage the bottom to sit on my cock and ride it instead... Heh...

8)I can almost be listed as some sort of an attention-seeker-wannabe. Some how. Not the desperate kind like stealing or doing something stupid to make people notice you... But I enjoy it a lot if people notice me in a crowd and actually spends time talking to me... And if no one bothers about me, I can get pretty upsetting... I think this is a self-confidence issue... I think I do lack self confidence... And having people noticing me boost my confidence.

9)I had always wanted to be an 'ah beng' (local slang for hooligan)... :p I think it is because of the fact that I grew up in a beng neighbourhood, I am almost always surrounded by bengs, young and old. I like to walk with an 'air' and talk with no manners... :p In fact, boy sometimes complain that I behave and talk like an ah beng sometimes, when he was not complaining about me behaving like an auntie! Hahaha...

10)I believe in having so called 'friends with benefits' or what I called the extended version of fuck buddies. :p I believe that it is ok to have sex with friends. In fact, I think it is more fun and more intimate to have sex with friends. Maybe it is because I like to know the people I am having sex with, to engage in small talks etc... Better not say too much, later people will start guessing who had sex with me whenever I was at the dinners and gatherings... Hahaha... Later no one will turn up for dinners when I turn up or worse, no want wants to be known as my friend! :p

11)I am a non-smoker and really hate the cigarette smoke. But I almost learnt to smoke during my NS days. I was surrounded by smokers and being a beng-wannabe, I wanted to smoke too... But a fellow NS colleague stopped me and said that if he had a choice, he would not have started to smoke at all. That sort of snapped me out of wanting to be a smoker... Hey, afterall, smoking man-cigars are better, right? :p

12)I believe in the power of Cialis. :p

13)I snack a lot... And I snack more when under stress... And I had started gaining weight once I started working, from 60kg slowing gaining to 63kg and then to 65 when I first started this current job. Now I am 74kg... *Gasp* And I am still snacking... I had tried to reduce and Boy is trying to stop me from buying snacks when we shop together. But it is hard... :p

14)I often label myself as an IT dinosaur. I really am bad at almost all things IT. I cannot download but the simplest stuff from the Internet. I dun even know what a RAM is and what is the speed of my computer, etc.

15)I cry a lot... Given the opportunity, I will wanna watch a sad movie and cry my heart out. I cry easily at the movies and Boy will purposely turn his head to see me cry when he thinks the scene will induce me to cry. He will then make fun of me for the rest of the night... :p But I always feel better after crying out... Anyway, I think it is good to cry... :p Moisturizes the eyes... Hahaha...

16)I actually lead a triple lif. One is my social life, which is a straight guy. One is my normal gay life, which is with Boy. One is my relaxed and wild gay life, which is Buaya. When I was younger, I was also leading some sort like a double life... I will name myself 'Jeff' when I met gay guys and some of these people still know me now as 'Jeff'... :p Its kinda funny when I hear the guy calling for 'Jeff' to 'fuck him harder' when I was the one doing the fucking... Hahaha... But I got used to it...

17)As I grow older, I began to understand why the old men always like to look for sweet young things as sex partners. It was supposed to give them vitality and make them feel young. Well... vitality it might not give me, but nowadays, I had developed a longing for the feel of young men. Not boys... But young men, 18-25... when their skin still feel bouncy and smooth and their cocks rock hard and ready any time and their innocence and naiveness is natural, sexy and desirable... But well, as life has it, as I age, I grow fat and now no young men will want me... Oh well...

18)I am scared of most flying insects. Some how, insects look eerie and disgusting... Especially flying cockroaches... In fact, I am scared of cockroaches even if they dun fly... When I was young, it was a different story. I will even hunt cockroaches and stamp to to their deaths... But somehow, I am so afraid of them now I will freeze when I saw one a few feet away and run when it started moving... Boy is beginning to get frustrated at this also... :p

19)Despite my laziness, I actually love to run and perspire. A lot. I like running and jogging and will even arrange to jog around my Uni when I was a student with classmates at least once a week. Once I get the initial unwillingness out of my mind and started perspiring, it makes me feel good. But loose ankles and a bad knee means I cannot really run or jog anymore. I tried swimming to replace running as an exercise but although I like swimming too, being almost naked with other almost-naked people and having to shower in a public shower room means I look forward to swimming more for the potential sex sessions thereafter... And I began to not actively swim but just to enjoy the sun and water and the men...

20)I almost never watch English shows on TV. I just dun have the habit. I do watch English movies... But I rather watch them in the cinemas... Maybe it is because my parents dun really understand English and thus from young we never watched English shows on the TV. As such, it just becomes a habit... However, with SCV, things started to change! Now, I just dun watch English shows on Channel 5... Hahaha... :P But I relish the documentaries and the cooking shows and the cartoons... :p

21)I am still pretty much in the closet when it comes to my sexual orientation. I would love to come out and declare my love and affection for Boy... But I dun think it will ever work out... I came out once... to a long-lost friend whom I thought was a lesbian... She was a secondary school friend and we were rather close. She was very tom-boy and butch and thus I always thought of her as a lesbian. After graduating from secondary school, we lost contact and I bumped into her again in the MRT train 2 years ago. I thought she was a lesbian and so I told her I am gay. She was shocked and told me she is straight and I bid goodbye embarrassed. She called me some days later, telling me she had a crush on a colleague and am not sure whether he is gay or not and asked me how a gay man is supposed to behave! I was a little angry as I think she is being stereotypical and making use of me... I was quite upset and decided against all forms of coming out now...

22)I had had clinical depression. I mentioned it in my blog earlier. But I kinda had been walking out of it and making sure that I do not get myself into the depression again. Now thinking back, as the SAF is being identified as one of the triggers of my depression, it must have started during my BMT when I was lonely and worried and I called the medical center, thinking I can get a counselor (hey, it said so on the posters in camp) but instead, I ended up being threatened from a medic over the phone. He threatened to report me to my officers and commanded me to go tell my platoon sergeant what happened immediately. I was young and naive then and scared. I din even realise that it is impossible that the stupid fellow will know who I am etc... I went to my platoon sergeant and confessed. *duh* But he is a nice guy who calmed me down, helped me smartened my smart 4 and walked me out of the office, telling me it is alright and nothing will happen. Damn the stupid medic... I hope he has a terrible life thereafter... :p

23)I am a sucker for soft toys... I have about 200+ soft toys and almost all of them used to reside on my bed... Only recently had I 'banished' most of them to 2 'China Prada' bags and left less than 100 on my bed and the headboard... Almost all of them teddy bears. Now I tend to buy just teddies and *almost* nothing else... I am thinking of cataloging them and taking pics and naming all of them in the process... :p

24)I had taken some nude pics of myself and I want to do more... But I wonder if it is really nice to have the pics taken with my current state of body shape... :p But one thing I found out... It is really difficult to stay focused and hard when posing nude for pictures... :p Maybe a fluffer will really help...

25)Lastly, the most embarrassing thing in my life happened in my lower secondary days. It will forever remain as the MOST embarrassing thing ever with nothing ever will be able to replace it... I had swear that I will NEVER EVER tell that to anyone. And so far, only those involved and no one else, knew. I will kill anyone who found out about it... :p

There! Done! :)

Thanks for reading! :)