Delta Sports Complex and my first 'relationship'...

Ok, I was PLAIN LAZY… :p

Where was I… Delta Sports Complex… :)

That was where I met the first guy who wanted me to be his boyfriend. :) Let me jump a few years just to talk about this… :p

The problem was, I don’t love him, I was very very unsure about such relationships and gay love… And I was not sure about this gay and love thing. I was confused and was unsure of my sexuality as yet. But he says he likes to be with me and wants me to be his boyfriend…

I met him while I was cruising at Delta Sports Complex. He asked me to his car and drove me to his place for fun. We exchanged number as he said he liked me and we kept in touch for more sessions. Soon, he started to ask if I can be his boyfriend as I said he looked cute while he said only his mum ever said he looked good. (Seriously, he looked ok lah, he was just very insecure, in my opinion…) Being unsure of gay relationships, I felt weird and agreed just for the fun of it. I would call him my bf when we were having sex (which was just kissing and him sucking for me cos I had not learnt how to suck until much later) and he would be happy. But I was very bad… I was scared and unsure and I did not even tell him where I actually stayed. I would ask him to drop me 1 MRT station away from my station and I would then take a cab or bus back… And I remembered that due to our age difference (he in his mid-30s and me just started my Uni course), he would be very happy to stuff some cash into my pant pockets when I was getting out of his car. He would always say, go buy some books, or something like that and then bye… Come to think of it, he was very sweet… I don’t think I met anyone like that every again…

Then there was this day when he was driving me home and his free hand start to feel up my thigh. Now, if my boy would feel up my thigh casually when I am driving now, I would be VERY happy… But back then, I was really scared. It shows that to me, he is just someone who I was having sex regularly with, not someone I loved. Because I asked him not to do it, and the reason I gave to him was rather silly. I said I don’t want the newspapers to report a traffic accident and the driver’s hand was on the passenger’s lap when found!... He, of course, was rather upset…

We hardly went on dates. In fact, I think we had ONLY went on 1 pathetic date. The 2 of us never even had dinner together! I remembered we went to watch the movie ‘Independent Day’ on our one and only date. And guess what, he fell asleep halfway through! After he woke up, he started to feel my thigh and eventually, his hand found his way to my zip and then into my pants! In order to keep himself from falling asleep, he decided to play with my cock! I tell you, I don’t mind at all! But I was so worried as there was a guy 2 seats away from me!... Later, of course, we had sex at his place… He told me he hated watching movies and had almost not watched any movies at all! He even recounted an occasion when he walked into a cinema full of Indians only to discover, when the movie started that the cinema was one that showed Indian movies only! He did not even know what show was on and what he wanted to watch! He just wanted to catch a show and ended up watching an Indian movie with a cinema full of Indian men! LOL!!

After a while, he began to complain to me… He said that apparently, I did not love him but he didn’t understand why I said that he was my boyfriend. I think this happened after he blew me while I was reading a (straight) porn magazine… He thought it was just too weird… Soon after that, he returned my page telling me his mum found out about his sexuality and was upset and he suggested that we not meet for some time. And of course, we lost contact soon and never meet again. At first I don’t mind at all and in fact, for several years later, I forgot about him. Recently, however, I began to look back at my gay history and I began to think about him and some other guys whom I might had hurt quite a bit. I really regret not taking things seriously earlier… But this is all fate, perhaps…

But I am rather upset now… Because I can no longer recall how he looked now. And seriously, I now think of him as 1 important person in my gay life… Maybe we might be bumping into each another but we had forgotten how each another looked like… It really is a sad thing… Oh well…

I still have some stories regarding Delta Sports Complex… But they happen nearer to now and so I think I will write about them later on instead. :)

Next installment, I think I will talk about my teenage years, which will cover my secondary school, JC and early army days. :) Stay tuned! :)