Surgery...

Not me... My boy is going for a surgery soon... And I am worried... Unduly, of course, I hope...

He is very scared... And it is just making me worry more...

Oh well... Just wanna tell you guys... Thanks for reading...

Depression sinking in...

This time it is work... I just feel like crying for no reason... I just keep thinking of different ways of dying... This is bad.

Seen my psychologist, I was asked to monitor and if it is really bad till when I will cry while in meetings (which I almost did earlier today), I will have to see a psychiatrist and start to take medication to control... I think the time is near.

Boy had noticed that I am very stressed up by work and had been a good boy recently... But he did complain that I had not been paying attention on him and had been buying less things/dinners for/with him... I think this job is eating into me quite bad...

I am seriously thinking of changing my job and had been checking things out... I think the time is near. Too.

I just might to seriously think of a serious paycut to be happier... Not that I am enjoying a high pay now, anyway... So, this is one thing I need to seriously think about...

But in the meantime... I really need to make sure that work is not causing my depression to really sink in...

Buaya at work

type type type...

Ya, at office... very cold somemore... wanna have sex to keep warm... :p

But need to finish work first!! :/

Happy Lunar New Year!!!

Happy lunar new year to all my readers! :)




I had not been able to post new stuff recently... due to work...


In fact, I will be working tomorrow...


But, since it is the new year, I shall not complain... :)

Depression setting in...

I almost cried in office today... I just suddenly feel like crying... There are too many things to do, too much expectations... Boy also know I am very stressed up by work... But he asked me to hang in there till about a year... As otherwise, I might be labelled as a job hopper... I dun think I am one... But... Oh well, I just wondered how long more can I stand my job... I also dun have time to write my stories and do cleaning for CNY!!... :(

Oh, btw, should I change this blog to the new Blogger version? Hmm...

Stressed out...

by work...

I am totally stressed up. I'm fucked...

I wanna quit... But had not found a new job cannot quit... And also dunno what to do...

Where's my sugar daddy ticket to taitai-dom? :(

BW Gathering

Heh heh... Finally attended one BW gathering... My oh my... I wish the place is a gay place... Then I can kiss people... There are cute men there! Hee... :p

I felt so restrained... LOL!...

Glad to put faces to some names... :)

Nice meeting you guys! :)

Coughing like crazy...

*Cough* *Cough* *Cough*... And I spat blood... Time to see another doctor?

Not that I am sick or what... Just this stupid cough refused to go away... :(