Sick Buaya...

Ya... Buaya caught a cold... These past 2,3 days too cold and then in and out of rain and aircon and sometimes sleeping bare-bodied... :/

Having a fever means aches all over... Poor thing, hor? :p

Boy made me very angry before he is flying... I caught him lying to me and I told him I will not forgive him... Boy is very scared and I tell you... I now strongly believe you cannot treat a person too good... Cos you will be taken for granted... *Sigh*

Anyway, I need a good talk with Boy when he returns to sort things out...

I do miss him... But I miss the old him... The one who loved me a lot, the one who will sms me to *ahem*, fuck him, the one who will kiss me etc...

I need a good sleep...

Gosh, I am desperate...

... and I am going to be a slut... and repeat this...

I NEED A SUGAR DADDY!

:p

Anyone knows of any decent one who want to help Buaya? Hee... :p

Financial crisis...

*Sigh*... Due to some unavoidable expenditures, Buaya found out last night that Buaya is heading towards his first ever financial crisis after Buaya started working... Buaya is running dangerously low on cash and payday is still like half a month away!!...

Buaya is desperate now leh...

Anyone wants to be sugar daddy for poor Buaya? Buaya is looking for (rich) sugar daddy for this month or 2... :|

*Please?*... *Pretty please?*... *Pretty pretty please?*... "|

Guess what...

Yeah, guess what...

There's a Chinese idiom, 'Wu4 Ji2 Bi4 Fan3' (Darn! I got to get a Chinese writing software... Or learn how to write Chinese using Window's software...), right? I think that describes me now... Pushed me to the limit and I responded... negatively... I am really cold towards him the past few days... And he sensed something was wrong... And initially he was indicating that he did not like the new behaviour of mine...

BUT... Somehow, after some time, he 'softened'... And now I truely believe that you cannot be too nice to some people... The more you are nice to him and treat him well, the more you are taken for granted... Now I stopped being nice, I became something he needs to work for...

Let's hope he keeps in up for the next few months...

Anyway, he is going for a holiday soon and we will not be meeting for some time... I will take the opportunity to ask if he misses me when we are away... If he can honestly say he does, then I can consider extending the 'probabtion period'... If he does not, then I will take the opportunity to ask him to keep that in mind and see if I am really needed in his life...

Thanks, guys, for the support you had shown for my decision... I appreciated them... :)

2 things...

1) I found this spam on the Blowing Wind forum...

<<A man walked into his doctors office, and asked him for 3 viagra pills.

The doctor asked, "Why only 3?"

The man said, "Well, Friday my secretary is coming over, Saturday my girlfriend is coming over, and Sunday my wife is coming home from her vacation.

The doc said, "Thats more than I wanted to know, but here's your 3 pills."

A week later the doctor saw the man at the gas station, his arm in a cast, and sling.

The doctor said, "What happened to you? Did the women all find out about one another?"

The man said, "No, Nobody showed up....."



And serious news: We have launched new generic viagra store.
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Hahaha... Nowadays, spammers need to disguise their spam so well... Looked like a joke or some normal post!... The spammer really very free ah...

2) More seriously, I am cooling down my relationship... I have came to realise and conclude that I am probably not important to my boy at all... I began to feel no love from him... No dependencies... There's no sex, no trust, no believe... I feel like a friend to him... Someone he can go out and shop with, someone he can watch movies with... There's no urge or want from him to touch me, to sayang me, to love me (I had not heard 'I Love You' from him for many months liao, asked him and he say he dun want to say if he dun mean it - what the!!!!) and to have sex, or any form of intimacy, with me. Hold his hands and he tried to push them away, tried to kiss him and he squirms away, touch him and he is angry...

What's the point?

I will take a step back and relax... And if he does not buck up, I will break it to him and let him know the reason... I am not to be taken for granted... I also need to feel loved and cherished... I am not getting any younger and if he does not want me, I better find someone else who wants... before I lose my 'market value'...

Hmm!...

I think it is his job to anger me... After every few days of lovey dovey, he will go all out to irritate me and drive me crazy... Arrggghhh...!

Why is that so??

Buaya miss his boy...

Ya... Miss him very much leh...

And Buaya only just last met him on Sunday... And today ONLY Tuesday...

Every waking moment, if not filled by work, will be spent thinking about how he is and wishing to be able to hug and kiss him...

Buaya believes that Buaya must have owed him A LOT in Buaya's past life... and so must repay back jialat jialat this life... That's why can miss him so much...

*Sigh*...

Some updates...

Some updates yet again... Been busy for a long time... and some guys were complaining I have no updates or stories...

Ok... First, I found out I had accidentally deleted all my porn and the half-completed NS Part 3 from my portable!!! Arrgghhh!!... Now I have to start all over again!...

Second, I will be very busy, probably till early next year... Man, this is rather disturbing... By the end of the day, I sometimes dun even feel like surfing the net and do writeups... The VCD/DVD of the Korean dramas that I wanted to watch are all just sitting there, collecting dust... No time, man! If got time, it is reserved for my boy...

Third, my boy... Ahh... I found a time and I poured my heart out... EVERYTHING I wanted to complain and query about him and his behaviour, I poured everything out... And so we talked and sorted things out... And we seem to be closer after that... My love for him just grew from then and he is able to understand me more and knows that I truely loved him a lot and the reasons why I was so suspicious earlier on.

We both learnt something... I learnt to give him more space and he learnt to understand me better... Hope things will be much better and better... :)

Lastly, the stupid haze problem is irritating me... My eyes hurt and my throat getting dry and sore... The air smells of smoke and heat is trapped by the smoke and making me feel hot, sticky and uncomfortable... I just dun feel like going out, even to take lunch!... Stupid slash and burn farmers...