My seduction style...

I am the siren wor... Is that good or bad?

Your Seduction Style: Siren / Rake

You possess an unbridled sensuality that appeals to many. The minute you meet anyone, you can make the crave you almost immediately. You give others the chance to lose control with you... spiraling into carnal bliss. A dangerous lover, you both fascinate and scare those you attract.

What Is Your Seduction Style?

My kind of soul

First an update... Frankly, I can feel my heart feel cold and breaking up... That's pretty bad, right? I feel like giving up... *Sigh*...

Anyway, my kind of soul:

You Are a Visionary Soul

You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness. Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul. You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable. Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings. You have great vision and can be very insightful. In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself. Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend. You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer. Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul

What Kind of Soul Are You?

He's at it again...

Hmm... I dare say I am not thinking too much this time...

He's supposed to be working OT again... I tried calling him at the time when he is on his way to work and he could not be found... Only called back half an hour later and explained he was tied up and he's late for work... But he was so calm as he spoke. Not the usual way he bahaves when he is late...

He then called me earlier than usual from his workplace... And the place he called from was surprisingly very quiet as compared to all his other calls... He was quite taken aback when I commented on how the background being very quiet today and how good it was for conversing using the telephone... But he managed to explain his way through...

Anyway, IF I am correct, I must commend him for trying his best to make sure everything feels like any usual day... And not to mention his effort...

But I am quite certain I am right this time... In the very unlikely event that I am wrong, I apologise... But please!...

*Sigh*, anyway, I am quite bo chap about his bahaviour now... As long as he is happy. I just don't like the fact that he has to lie to me that he was working...

Buaya on Medication...

Eh... Buaya was feeling depressed, so Buaya went to seek medical advise.

Now Buaya on medication, and Buaya noticed taht the medicine is making Buaya very lethargic... And sleepy!... Yes, Buaya can fall asleep easily now and Buaya slept quite well recently... But Buaya is damn lazy and tired for the entire day thereafter...

Only sex can wake Buaya up, it seems! Haha...

Buaya wonders if the medicine he is taking will work...

Hmm...

Picture problem...

Ok... I had some feedback that even my avatar is missing. On my end, I can still see my avatar but having some problems with some of the pictures. I would appreciate if you guys can inform me if my avatar is missing. Thanks!!

Ok... This week had been wierd... I felt wierd. I still love him, he's still talking to me and behaving like nothing special had happened... But I just feel I had more freedom and I am quite relaxed with him also... Not that I am bo chap... But I think I had finally begin to just let him be... Let him do what he wants...

Maybe we would both be happier this way... :)

The pics too 'porn'?

Ya... apparently, Phototbucket think so and so my account was terminated! They emailed me...

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So sad... Hmm... Maybe I need to tone down the pictures I post somemore... :p

Love myself

Well, I decided... I need to love myself more.

Boy is still talking to me. He's behaving like nothing is happening... I am going for some counselling... I think I should make myself happy, with or without Boy.

A cute guy told me that in a relationship, trust is very important. We should, as much as possible, try to believe in our partner and reduce our suspicion... Well... I got a feeling if I go for counselling, I will be told that as well!...

Maybe Boy is also tired from hearing me suspecting him... Maybe he really didn't do anything... Maybe he did and was so guilty or tired of hiding from me because he knew I will be extremely upset if I know. Whatever it is, I think I should no longer dwell on this issue.

I want to be myself. I want to make myself happy...

So, since my back and shoulders are aching like mad and I found the old receipts of Wa***Spa, allowing me to get a free footscrub, I decided to treat myself to a scrub and a massage. Sh*t! should not have gone there! The regular masseur I always called for was not in and the new guy asked me for 'tips'... And his strokes are not as hard. Also, the free footscrub I was supposed to get was so crappy... I left the spa still with aching back and shoulders and worse, I left horny!!...

What a way to try to make myself happy! I wanted to relax and enjoy myself, I ended up more frustrated!...

*Sheesh*...

Official Notice - Buaya's death...

Buaya is dead. His heart turned cold. He went to sleep and he doesn't wished to wake up from his eternal sleep anymore.

Buaya had mild depression and was turning suicidal. Boy had shown that Buaya is not that important afterall. Boy said he was also tired and do not wish to listen to Buaya talking about the relationship anymore. Boy asked Buaya to be strong and take care of himself.

If Boy's idea of a relationship is to watch movies, eat, shop and occasionally have sex together, then so be it. Buaya will let him have his way. Boy will get what he wants.

Maybe Buaya really thought too much and read too deep and went over the line. But the response from tired Boy pushed him way past the line.

Buaya should love himself more...

Met new friends

I met up a couple of guys recently... Friends who listened to me complaining and offering some support... I would like to thank them for spending their time with me to listen to me and make me feel better. :) Thanks!!

Yah, I was feeling low again... Same stuff... Suspicious behaviour invoked appropriate suspicions... But this really is driving me crazy... A good friend asked me to break up with my boy... So I can have my sanity back... But I loved him a lot and worse... I have no incriminating evidence...

I was unceremoniously dumped so many times, I know it hurts a lot! Even if expected... So that would be the LAST thing I would ever do... And I know my boy do not want to talk about my suspicions... *Sigh*... Looks like I have to divert my attention with something else...

Facial pics...

Nothing better to post... :p So, went through some pics and found these I like quite a lot... :)

I love giving people facials... But my boy don't like. Actually seldom have the chance to do so, anyway... So, I find facial pics damn sexy... Haha... Who wants a facial? ")

Enjoy!

Brokeback Mountain

Congratulations to Lee Ann (Please! He is a Chinese, his name is Lee Ann, not Ann Lee!!)... for winning the Best Diretor award at the Oscars... Well done!

Anyway, I like to say I like the movie, it is a little slow but the scenery is nice and the story about cowboys in love and having sex is, well, kinky but nice. :)

However, I also say the story can be better... Eh, there's still room for improvement? Don't take the losing of Best Picture too hard, eh, Mr Lee? :p

Anyway, hopefully this movie can allow some people to think about gay relationships, the pain of being in love and not accepted just simply because the 2 are of teh same sex... I want to be seen holding my boy's hands and kissing him in public without being shamed or ridicued... I want to be able to express my love for my boy just like how those straight couples are doing... I want to be able to display my affection for him... And I want to have the legal responsibilities of caring for and looking out for him...

Oh well, hopefully, things WILL get better!

Here are some cartoons with ideas from Brokeback Mountain... :p

What kind of gay I am...

I wonder if this will appear... I took a test to see what kind of gay person I am...

You scored as The all-round cute gay guy. YOu are a cute guy who many would die to be with..........lucky!! The all-round cute gay guy 90% Raging Queer 70% A Big Bear 50% Straight Acting 50% Straight 30% S + M guy 20% Straight Queer Basher 10% What type of Gay are YOU? created with QuizFarm.com

My worth...

Hmm!... A friend woke me up this morning and asked me to go to 1-7... He wanted to fuck me... He then said he wanted to pay for my entrance fee. So, I said, I am not that cheap, only worth the $20 entrance fee... Guess what he said to that? He said, it is only $17, not $20!! I was SO angry!

Frankly, it set me thinking... I think it is only worth it if the person you are having sex with is someone you LOVE. Or at least like VERY MUCH. Hey, I am NOT cheap!... Sigh...

Happy...

Somehow, for the past couple of days, my boy had been very nice to me... I mean relative to how he was behaving the past few weeks/months... It was not like when we are together for the first year. But it was good. He took a lot of the initiative. He asked to meet and asked me for dinner, etc. Now, maybe if I pray hard, he might ask for sex! Haha... Hmm... Actually, he did. Sort of... I dropped a naughty hint and he took it up and suggested that we make love. And he enjoyed it a lot! Actually, he asked for seconds! But it was immediately after I had shot... Err... Me no teenager, so, sorry, boy! He understood and asked me to make him cum, which is my job, anyway... Glad to do so! ;)

So, I had been a happy man for this week... And hopefully, I can get more of it!! I think the trick is to tone myself down. Let him take over and control stuff... :p