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Buaya - Malay language for 'Crocodile'. Also used connotatively to describe cheeky men who are into sex... :)

Sunday, July 30, 2006

What is it in a love relationship...

Hmm... What is a relationship? You love love love, then fight fight fight, then love love love... and it repeats all over again?

I am trying to be interested in his interests and he tries to be interested in mine... So we can have more common stuff to talk about. But it can be difficult and sometimes expensive... Oh well...

Just some mumblings... Better than a report on penile addiction... :p

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Friday, July 28, 2006

Want to take a break!...

There are times when you REALLY want to take a break... I see an oppotunity to take a LONG break coming...

I am relieved... I hope this helps with my depression and am looking forward to it...

Sunday, July 23, 2006

Kampong Buaya? :p



Anyone wanna go Kg Buaya and see Buaya? LOL...

Penile addiction... :p

You know? In psychology, they say most women will develop some form of penile envy... Apparently, we men can do a lot of things because we simply have a penis... :p With the penis, we control the world... Hahaha...

But I think I have penile addiction... :p

Ya, I know... Gay men of course love cocks and dicks... But I think I am more than that... :p

I will use every oppotunity to see as many dicks as I can... As long as the dick belongs to someone who's already sexually mature (i.e. have pubic hair)... Especially at the urinals, changing rooms etc...

I especially like the unerected dicks when peeing... There's is something erotic about dicks not ready for action yet and can launch into action anytime... Heh heh... I love seeing someone erect... beats seeing a hard dick right away anytime... Hahaha...

But, but but... I love hard dicks as well, ok... Haha...

I love BIG dicks and I love SMALL dicks... Big dicks are good for sucking and touching... Small dicks are also nice to suck but especially good for shallow fucking... Haha...

I just love dicks... And I truely believe I have an addiction to the penis... Hee...

Saturday, July 22, 2006

La la la la la... Just some mumblings...

I had retail therapy last night and was feeling a little better... :p

We had arguments again... But friend say it is normal for couples to launch into arguments... So, dun care lah...

Oh, as a side note, you know, come to think of it...I had never been chased in my relationships... :p I longed to be chased and I think I loved to be chased... Haha... :p

Oh oh, when was the last time you chatted over the phone for hours non-stop? And some more was talking about your sexual adventures? :p This reminds me of an episode of my third installment of my Army Days...

Oh oh oh... I need a rest... Erm, more likely, a holiday... Some personal matter is driving me crazy now and I am wishing and wishing it can be resolved as easrly as possible and I can go for my delayed holiday... I think I also need a good sleep... And a good hug... :/

Oh oh oh oh... Erm... Think nothing to mumble about liao... :p

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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Army Days - Part 2

My NS life part 2… Heh heh… Actually not in the mood to write but I guess it might do me good by actually starting to write this… takes my mind off some matters for a temporary moment… :/

Let me see… After BMT, I was sent to Kranji camp for my ACT. It was with a Guards unit (I actually said Seletar camp in my previous installment, my mistake, Seletar camp is during my GSCC…). Kranji camp is more ‘happy’ looking than Seletar camp, but still, it is a big change compared to my BTS camp… And things can and did get depressing for me…

But as I hinted in the last installment, there were some ‘exciting’ things happening during my ACT… Nope, I did not had sex with anyone in the camp… But there are certainly a couple of interesting events occurring that I can still clearly remember… :p

The first is a very memorable experience… Up till now, I still have this image in my mind and I will sometimes use it to fantasize upon and jerk off for my masturbation sessions… LOL…

Ok lah, I saw 2 of my sergeants showering when we are training at Tekong… Heh heh… Actually, it is nothing much… No difference from seeing fellow trainees’ butts and cocks when they were showering… But there is something sexy and kinky seeing someone in power showering naked with you… Heh heh…

At the end of a day’s exercise, we were at either a deserted village/town or an Army built training village/town and resting when our OC decided to be nice(r) to us and allow us to take a shower at night… I think all of us were very relieved… Finally, can wash up and feel better…

Well, frankly, I don’t think I am THAT happy… Firstly, I NEVER appreciated being in a communal shower during that time… Even after the BMT ‘trainings’, I still don’t like the experience… I was still pretty much afraid that my dick will suddenly spring into action and start pointing around… Hahaha… Secondly, I very much prefer to remain dirty till I have a chance to be clean and then STAY clean… :p I mean, what’s the point of cleaning up and then getting wet and dirty again in a while?? Hmm… Anyway, off we go, in our PT attire, with our towel and soap in hand heading to the communal shower in batches… And I noticed that in front of my group were 2 sergeants… And somehow I was getting excited… BAD news… :p

Well, by the time I reached the showers, the 2 of them were butt naked and soaping up, all the while ignoring us and talking and laughing among themselves… Shucks, there’s something about seeing them naked that got me really horny… I am getting hard and there’ no way I can shower with them (as much as I would love to)… I decided to head to the toilet and wank off… Well, I had a GOOD time… But I didn’t realized that I was taking a LONG time too… :p By the time I shot my load and walked out of the toilet naked, most of the guys had left, including my 2 naked sexy sergeants… *Phew*… I was lucky… My cock was still half hard (and dripping pre-cum) and it would be terribly embarrassing if anyone I know then actually saw me with the half hard cock… :/ Now, I can walk out of a room after sex with a dripping cock and I would heck care… Hahaha… :p

The second incident that I can still recall clearly is more serious… In fact, very serious… One night, a platoon mate of mine gathered a few of us who were closer to him then and asked us to help him… He asked us to keep whatever he is going to tell us a secret and that he is seeking our advise… He was very nervous and he sounded very scared… He told us that a certain Ah Beng character in the company had been cornering him in the showers and try to get fresh with him!!... Now, it sounded kinky to me… But it was a serious case then!... The Beng had been trying to touch him and I heard he was fondling his own cock while cornering my (naked) friend in his shower, talking about raping him and such… I think he even got to touching my friend’s butt!... My friend was very upset, scared and of course embarrassed about it…

Incidentally, the Ah Beng had a good friend whom they sometimes ‘pretend’ to fuck one another, moaning or get fresh with one another, just for the fun of it, when we were resting during exercises… I do not know if they were doing those because they are gay and was a couple or they were gay and trying to attract similar attention (so they can have fun in camp) or they are NOT gay but just trying to be funny… Some people even heard moaning in the toilet cubicles and then see them coming out of the toilet later…

Anyway, my friend, who incidentally was NOT sissy, but rather decent with a scholarly look, was constantly being sexually harassed by this Beng and he had us he had told his mother when he booked out… He was afraid that his mother will go to the camp CO and complain and so was asking us for advise…

Anyway, to cut the story short, his mother did complained… But not to the CO… She complained to her MP!! One night, our OC called for the few of us to his office and while updating us and calming us down, gave us a good scolding for not talking to him before the matter blows out of hand and landed in an MP’s hands… Well… We NEVER had thought of talking to him about it… Maybe we should, but… Oh well, the Beng was court marshaled and sentenced to go to DB… I think by the time he was released, we (including the poor guy who was harassed) had moved on and went for further training… I did see the Beng again later, when his unit was training in my camp… We chatted as he remembers me… But it was only for a minute or 2… Nothing of the past was being mentioned…

After leaving Kranji camp, I was sent to SISPEC for further training… The place is definitely more lively… More friendly too… Perhaps because it is a school environment or perhaps it is because they see us as leaders… I had a pretty good time there… But again, nothing sexual… Haha…

One thing I remembered best during this time was the morning exercises we were forced to have in SISPEC… Frankly, I am not a morning person, even in the army… And all the more I HATE doing exercises in the morning… unless you would consider sex as an exercise… Hahaha… Anyway, to make matters worse, we had to do it topless… Heh heh… yes, it is a good time to ogle… But frankly, I hate being topless… Well, maybe THEN… I was still not comfortable with my body and more uncomfortable with exposing it… And it hurts trying to do situps on the carpark floor topless!... :p Oh, and I think it feels warmer doing exercises topless… And it sure is weird taking breakfast topless! Hahaha…

I also remember the shower at SISPEC… While the other camps had cubicles (without doors, though) for showering, SISPEC had not shower cubicles!... There was a communal shower area and some toilet cubicles, that’s all… :p And so, I enjoyed the showering times… Dicks galore… Hahaha… I remembered this tall dude who wasn’t handsome nor cute… He’s a little skinny and fair but guess what? He has a monster as a dick!... When showering with him, I would be ogling at his tool… He hangs at about 5” when soft!... And he was the talk of the company during rest times… Yes, almost everyone who saw him was talking about his size!... :p Certainly memorable… I guess he’s straight… Hahaha… Wonder if his wife would love his dick and talk about it with her girlfriends like us talking about it in camp!... :p

Shower time would also be a time for me to have a good look at one of my neighbour… He is cute looking and is very buff… Looks yummy, I would say!... :p He would always go shower and then return butt naked and dry off at his bed, which is right next to mine… So, I had a good time enjoying his naked body, head to butt and cock… :p His tool is nothing like that of Mr 5-incher-while-soft mentioned above… It was more like a boy’s tool, surrounded by the pubic hair… :p But it was a nice sight seeing the handsome him naked… :p He was discharged from the course to pursue his medical studies… Think he should be serving as a MO now… :)

Another neighbour of mine also became an officer… He performed so well in SISPEC, they promoted him and sent him to OCS… But I remembered him by another case…He is quite a good friend of mine, and I think a scholar as well… He came up to me one fine day and started touching his own chest… Well, dun anyhow guess… :p He was suspecting he had breast cancer!... He said he felt a lump somewhere and was moving his hand around his pecs like it was a breast and was saying his doctor was asking him to double check and be sure about it… He was very scared and I was just glad he did not asked me to feel for him… I might just end up molesting him!! :/ Anyway, luckily for him, nothing cancerous was detected… But it sure made me wary of male breast cancer cases… Don’t laugh… Men CAN get breast cancer…

After SISPEC, I went for my GSCC… Man, I HATE the course… I personally think it ruined my life… Hahaha… Come to think of it, many people think the Army ruined their lives too! :p

I think the 10km runs had wrecked my knees and ankle… But too bad, I still had yet to get a specialist to write a letter for me to downgrade me… *Sigh*… Well, there’s nothing about the GSCC that I want to remember… No special people that I saw or special events that arouse my sexual memories… I just wish I did not had to go through the course… Maybe that is why I have little memories of the course… I only remembered the camp (Seletar camp) had grayish buildings and the whole place looked very miserable and depressing… The only good thing is the Jalan Kayu roti pratas… Nothing good to recall… I only remembered a forced powder bath though… We were in the middle of an exercise and the instructors got us all gathered in a training shed, then asked us to display all our full pack items and then instructed us to strip and powder ourselves… I think they are weird, like enjoying a free show or something… Basically staring at us stripping and powdering… They made us change underwears then and there and cover ourselves in powder from head to toe… Then after changing, they made us hide in the forest again… I mentioned I HATE getting dirty once I am cleaned (or int his case, felt clean) and so I was pretty pissed… Till now… Hahaha…

The most sexual thing ever related to this part of my NS life, besides the forced stripping mentioned was my regular sergeant mentioning something he saw some years back… He said he was walking through part of the training area with his section when he saw a car in his track. He went to see if anyone was in the car as the car should not be there and he saw a couple fucking in the car… He had to knocked on the glass and asked the guy to drive the car away… :p He was cheeky as he mentioned the guy was frustrated but had to drive away naked with his cock hard and pointing upwards… :p

Ok lah… Next installment will be on my next 1.5 years in the army… When I was serving in a school… :)

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Monday, July 17, 2006

'Retiring'... :p

Ya... Buaya is thinking of retiring from all these 'Buaya-ness'...

Should I? :p

I mean sooner or later, I might start to think I don't deserve my boy!... :p

Oh, btw, I met a nice guy last week... Sigh... You know, it might be a good thing that he is not local and we can meet up only when he is in Singapore... :/

Oh oh... I hate IRC... :/ But I quite like driving at 3am... :p And I wonder whether I should drive naked or topless or bottomless... wonder how it would feel like... :p

I will try to get the HIStory done asap... REALLY lazy to write... :p

Friday, July 14, 2006

Recommendation...

Hmm... A friend sent me this link...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8p269Rp3qxA

Nice? :) I would love to see some 'meat' though... Hahaha...

Wednesday, July 12, 2006

Congratulations to Joe Black! :)

Mr Joe Black emailed me and showed me this...



Congratulations to Mr Joe Black! :) Now waiting for him to suggest what he wanted... Haha... ;)

Monday, July 10, 2006

Who's the 10,000th visitor??

Hmm... My readership exceeded the 10,000th mark liao... But no one owned up... Hmm... Oh well... :/

Will try to carry on writing my HIStory by the end of the week... :p

And so the Italians won...

I should have bet on the Italians since I suddenly have a hunch... With the photos and such... haha...

Oh well, anyway, so, are those guys from the Italian team?? :p

And the readership is 9886 now (see the red box on the bottom of the side bar)... Another 120+ readers to reach 10,000... That should take like 1-1.5 days more... :p

Thanks for the support... Remember, the 10,000th reader, let me know who you are by dropping me a note as a comment, in the shoutbox, or by MSN at ibuaya@gmail.com

:)

I will try to arrange something for you... ;)

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Sunday, July 09, 2006

10,000th visit soon... :p

Heh heh... It is 9840 now... By my estimate, the readership will hit 10,000 soon... :p

Remmeber, anyone hitting the 10,000th mark, do drop me a note as a comment here or on the side bar (shout box)... :)

I will see what I can arrange for you... ;)

Italy?

Since tomorrow morning (local time) will be the final World Cup 2006 match and it will be Italy vs France, I thought I might as well post something... Heh heh...

Found these at Shaved Dudes, another nice gay blog with nice pictures... Are these really from the Italian team?

I would support the team if so... Haha... Especially if the last cute boy is from the team... Haha... ;p







And this is the boy I was referring to...


Cute, right? ;)

So, are they from the Italian team?? :p Who will win the World Cup 2006? :p As if I bother... Haha... I also did not gamble... :p

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What a day...

Well... I had a good turn bad turn good day... Sigh...

It started wonderful, despite the bad weather (it was HOT!!) Boy actually planned a whole day of activities with me and I was VERY happy... However, towards the end, I lost my wallet(!) and with it, some cash, my identity, credit, debit, ATM and EZLink cards, and worse, a Singapore Sweep ticket(!)...

I was (and still am) cursing the person who stole those stuff (I curse that the person who stole my wallet (which is a gift from my boy), that if he/she speaks, his/her mouth will rot, when he/she shit, his/her ass will rot, when he/she have sex or any form of self or mutual sexual gratification, his/her genitals will rot!!!)Well... Buaya can be a bitch too... :p

Anyway, what is worst is I lost a couple of photos of me and my boy... :( No, not in any suggestive posts... But I was very upset as I had very few photos with him... :(

And so, it began a frantic search for the wallet (in vain) and then a frantic search for numbers to call... I called all my banks to cancel all my cards (a nightmare, I tell you...) and had to make a report with the mall and a police report...

I was upset, you might say... But my boy was always by my side, forgoing the plans made for the rest of the day, scolding me but at the same time, cheering me, basically, standing by me... Sigh... For this once in quite a long while, I actually felt being loved... And I just wished I can just hug him then and there...

And so this is my story of a day which plans went wrong, and turned from good to bad to somewhat good again...

But I am still pissed with the wallet lost, especially the pictures... And oh, I am worried about Ah Longs accepting my lost IC and lending the rotting idiot money... I dun want to be harrassed!! *Touch wood!*... Sigh... I guess I won't have a good rest for several months...

*Shit*... Forgot I need to pay a BIG sum of money to replace the IC... and I wun be able to use $$ for the next few days without my ATM and credit cards... :/ *Grr...*

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Friday, July 07, 2006

Lazy...

I had been PLAIN LAZY...

Sorry guys, no mood to continue to write the rest of my HIStory... Got some personal things to sort out... :/

Oh, on another note, my readership had been slowly pushing to the 10,000 mark... :p

Anyone happening to hit the 10,000 mark do let me know... I'll prepare something for you lah... Haha... ;p

Oh... I had been thinking, any thoughts on nudity and porn material on this blog?... Drop me a note on the side bar or leave a comment here... My personal stand is to avoid porn and post censored pics, if any...

Sunday, July 02, 2006

Army Days - BMT

Ya... Finally, going to talk about my NS life... I think I will split it into 3 parts... Afterall, it is a rather long period of time, 2.5years... :p

I actually quite enjoy my NS life... It sure is an experience... Nothing sexual though... But I dun like my reservist, though... :p Anyway, here it goes... Oh, sorry guys, not much sex... :p Afterall, I was still new to gay sex and the army is a scary place for me at that time... :p

When I first entered the army, I was a little scared… I was afraid that being gay, I would not be able to control myself, especially during the shower times… Afterall, I would cum at least once a day, everyday, regardless, and so was afraid of how I am going to control my desires when I am in the army…

Before going for my BMT, I was sent to do the pre-NS checkup… It was hell for me… I was so nervous, I can’t remember much what had happened… I only remembered there was this section that was cordoned off and hidden… I was instructed to go inside and then asked to strip to my underwear and sit down with some other boys, already in their underwear… It was kind of humiliating, actually… I think I remembered it was a little cold and I was really scared… There was nothing erotic about it and of course the last thing on my mind was obtaining an erection… :p

After a while, sitting with my underwear on the plastic chair, we were instructed to all step into a room. There was a doctor sitting behind a table and we stood in a line facing him. I think we were asked some questions and then asked to pull our underwear down to our knees and then cough… It was REALLY weird and I was so scared I was not even looking at the other cocks… :p Come to think of it now, wasted, right? Haha… I cannot even remember what happened after that… I think if the medics are gay, they will love their job! LOL…

After a few months, I was enlisted… I was really scared when it is time for the first communal shower!... The shower room has cubicles, but no doors! And the cubicles are along the curved wall, so basically, everyone is exposed to everyone! I can’t recall what happened during the first shower, guess I was too tired and luckily, nothing happened… the first night sleeping was also scary... and luckily, also nothing happened… no one was walking around for JO, blow job, etc… I think all too tired! Or was I reading too many stories and hoping for too much? Haha… Anyway, the first few days scare the shit out of me. I was also being sabo-ed by a medic, but that is another story I dun want to talk about and it is not sexual anyway… But it made me realized how cute my platoon sergeant was… Haha… His name is Lion… :p

And so, nothing sexual happened in my BMT days, the only interesting times were during the shower times… There will be times when I really cannot tahan any longer, seeing the naked bodies… Some of the guys will be very conscious and would be covering all the way from the changing area to the shower and back, but some would be bo chap…

Once, I can’t take it any more and decide to JO in the toilet cubicle before the shower. It was quite embasrrasing… As even though I made no noise during the process, my cock refuses to go down much after cumming… So, I had to emerge from the cubicle with a half hard cock, rushing quickly to have a cold shower… :p I think those who had seen me with the half hard cock would had known straight away that I was jerking off in the toilet! LOL…

I remembered once, me and a few friends were chatting while drying ourselves after out shower, it was rather innocent, we were sort of rushing and talking at the same time. Towels came off as we started to rub the towels on our bodies to dry ourselves before putting on our shorts… I began to notice that 2 of them were half hard! Haha… The Indian guy is actually near hard but he was not thinking much of it and was just talking, laughing and then putting on his shorts like it is perfectly normal. The Chinese guy was visibly embarrassed… I thought I saw him blushing and he was trying to rush the drying actions and swiftly put on his shorts… I thought it was rather funny… :p

The Chinese guy was later sent to the same unit with me for ACT and as we were quite close, we chose to sleep next to one another in the new place. But the bunk was small and the place for the 2 beds were rather cramped, we decided to push the 2 beds together… But alas, nothing happened, though some of my bunkmates were trying to make jokes out of our conjoining beds… :p I later got transferred for further training and I didn’t see him anymore… We met again though, much later, during reservist… He’s still shy and single… Hmm… Maybe he is gay too… :p Too bad I lost his contact number when I lost my handphone… :/

There is another guy I know in BMT that could possibly be gay… I remembered he was very good to me… I first got depressed in BMT and I actually had wanted to commite suicide then. He was the one who talked to me at the corridor that day… I remembered he put his arms around my shoulder and spoke softly to me… Some other platoon mates saw us and were making funny remarks about us, but he ignored them. But somehow, after we passed out from BMT and were sent to the unit for our ACT course, he suddenly became unfriendly to me… I have no idea why… Maybe he was jealous of the above mentioned guy…

There are other possibly gay characters in BMT… I remembered a group of 3 sissy guys and they were often being laughed at and made fun of… I think I saw one of them later cruising when I was also cruising… Luckily, he did not remember who I was… There was another guy who saw me in a spa, remembered me but could not recall where… I kissed him, hold him in my arms and say, ‘BMT’… :p We did not do anything… He’s not my type… Haha…

And so, came the end of the BMT period… And we were all sent off to different units for further training… Me and quite a lot of my platoon mates were sent to a Guards unit for ACT. It was there that I realised that I had developed a crush on my section commander in BMT. The Guards unit was in Seletar Camp and the buildings were all grayish coloured and it made me more depressed… I started to miss the BMT camp and one particular person… Yes, my section commander… He’s rather cute looking, fit but we never get to see his body, and always jovial, talking cock and making fun of us… It was bad as I missed him a lot during my ACT… It does not help that the commanders in the unit were not friendly and I just find it difficult to blend in… Sigh… I saw him again many years later… in a bus ride and of course, I did not speak to him but just admire him from my bus seat… he’s still as cute, but grown a little rounder… I never get to see him after that again… :/

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